What if...?

I'll keep this short and sweet. Something to chew on a little bit!

What if God said this to you, "Is my infinite-ness and greatness not infinite and great enough to hand the minor or petty things in your life?"

Well, He said that to me. In context and how it looks for me is something along these lines:
I need a parking space. If you happen to know where I am currently living, you know that it is no small task to find a parking spot. Especially on a weekend night.

My mental process = Oooo. a test of patience... I can handle this. I'll scout out a spot even if it takes all night!!!! *sees a spot open up just in time for a different car to pull in* 'Jerk!!'

And on it goes.

Then it hit me. No.... it couldn't be! Was I possibly denying God an opportunity to bless me by taking control? Was I somehow thinking that He was either too busy or too apathetic to provide me with a parking space? I know his has the CAPABILITY to do such things...but why didn't I submit such a small thing to Him and just take control of it myself...especially when He is so very able to bless me with a place to park.

So I started asking Him, "God, you know my needs, but would You please show me a place to park this car?"
And since then...every time, there has either been a car leaving the parking lot, or a space came into my view within 5 minutes....which (so you get an idea) is a miracle. He is so so good.

What the case for you?
Is there something small that you need to trust God with? Will you allow Him to be that provider that is full of endless blessings and grace toward you? Can you see that His infinite-ness goes both ways -concerning the tiny as well as the huge things?

I'm still processing this and God continues to change my perspective of Who He Is.

Is God's infinite-ness and greatness not infinite and great enough to handle the little things as well as the big things that go on in your life? Are you willing to let His blessings permeate every single area of your day to day life?

Impinting

Imprinting. Do you know what that is?

im·print Verb /imˈprint/

imprinting present participle; imprinted past tense; imprints3rd person singular present; imprinted past participle

1. Impress or stamp (a mark or outline) on a surface or body
2. Make an impression or mark on (something)
3. Fix (an idea) firmly in someone's mind
4. (of a young animal) Come to recognize (another animal, person, or thing) as a parent or other object of habitual trust

Check out the third and forth definitions listed above. And here's a story:


I had this pair of geese.
Now...most people hate geese, but not I. I love geese. And my geese were wonderful. The pair came by mail order in a cardboard box. The two were barely a day old, and were attentive and eager to learn. As I watched them, something in goose character became evident to me very quickly.
Sure dogs and cows and other domestic animals learn that people can take care of them and they can be trained, but geese are a little different in the fact that they get very particular about who they will listen too. Geese imprint deeply. You have probably all heard stories about how if you watch a goose hatch and it sees your first, then it will think you are it's mother. Well, that is basically true. I didn't have the pleasure of watching my geese hatch, but in their infancy, they immediately latched on to me as a parent.


First thing in the morning, I'd say good morning to my mom and instantly baby goose noises and peeps would erupt from the basement. They had heard me and knew I was coming. So I'd head downstairs and as soon as they saw me with their eyes the excitement in them doubled. It was like they were screaming "She's here!! She's here!!!" And they'd make a mad dash over to the side of the box where they could be closest to me.
As they got older, they graduated from the box to be able to spend longer amounts of time outside. When I would get them out in the grass, it was an unspoken rule that they could venture out and explore, but as soon as I spoke to them, they would come waddling over to me. They didn't understand what I said, but my voice was familiar to them as I talked to them my voice became something they listened for attentively. I quickly found that they loved to eat out of my hands. I'd pick them grass or dandelion leaves and hold them out for them to take. The geese would come sit on or by my leg and wait for me to feed them. There was grass everywhere, but they especially wanted what I had to picked to give them.


My dad would sometime say in amazement, "Wooooow..." because of how well the goslings knew me. They easily could tell me apart from anyone else, and followed so closely behind me that they would run into my heels at times. Anytime I talked they'd pipe up with their own squeaks (that eventually grew into their honking tones), because they knew me.


They got all mature and all that, so naturally they decided that water was an attractive thing, so we played in water troughs splashing and flicking water all over the place. I had so much fun with them! Right after getting wet was the ritual "dry in the sun" time where I stroked their wings and necks while they slept in a warm sunny spot. Later, when they became more independent, they went on walks without me to the pond for the afternoon, but as soon as I would call them, they'd rush back up to the house or barn. Because I called them. Because they knew my voice. They didn't listen to anyone else. When they'd cause trouble, I would often hear "Brenna! Get your goose!!" So, as was my responsibility, I'd take care of whatever was the issue.


One day the geese came to me, but one was shaking his head at funny angles and the female was making worried croaky noises. Wondering what was the matter (because I knew their behavior wasn't normal), I sat down with them and spoke gently, encouraging them to come close so I could see.
He wasn't thrilled when I grabbed him and pinned him by holding him in place between my knees, and he was even more ticked when I took his beak, and forced it open. Both geese were upset with my by then. They made their distressed noises that broke my heart and the female came close to her mate to try to be of comfort. Turns out, there was a cotton string wrapped around the gander's tongue, and it was making him have trouble swallowing. But even though they were still upset, I knew that this bit of trauma was better for them than leaving the string where it was. I got the string out and released the gander and did my best to comfort them, but it took them a few days to let the grudge go and to forgive (or forget what happened entirely) me for grabbing the gander.
As much as I wished they could see that what I did was helpful, they couldn't understand really. And I knew that. It's just that there was something much more important to me than how they felt about me at the moment. That was their welfare. I had to help! Even if it affected how they typically saw me as protector, provider, comforter, and playmate for awhile.


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I have two main points for telling you this story.


One point is near the beginning, but is very much linked to the second point. It is this: Both geese and sheep come in groups that are called flocks (more specifically for geese, it is called a gaggle. But the flock idea remains.) Both flocks and gaggles often need shepherds and for my geese, since I raised them and they could distinguish me from other people, I was their shepherd. And just as my geese grew to know, love, and respond to my voice, so should it be with us and Jesus, who is our shepherd.
Just as my geese knew my voice, ate from my hand, trusted me to provide, relaxed and slept in my presence, got excited when I called them, played with me, and honked to/with me, just as I can, as God's child, can know His voice, savor His presence, get excited about what He's doing, etc. etc. etc. We need to be imprinted to God, just like my geese were imprinted to me.


God and I had something in common. We were both shepherds, and I and anyone who knows me well can tell you that I loved my geese very much I loved to go sit with them, talk, care, feed, stroke, comfort, guarde, and play with them. All of it! I loved it!!
The experience of having them has been a highlight in my upbringing. It was one of my favorite things. Like... ever. In the same way, God loves to bee all that for you and me as well.
I know a shepherd's heart. It is well meaning, intimate, and from a more knowledgeable perspective than its flock.


Point numero dos:
Sometimes, the shepherd has to "hurt" in order to help. Like when I upset the geese to get the string out of the gander's mouth and throat. But it was for his benefit. Similarly, God may "damage" or remove something from or in you or me to HELP. He can see the hurt it is causing and know that a little pain and uncertainty now will be so much better than leaving things how they are.
Allow god to change whatever it is. Don't grudge Him for it either, because it is for your benefit.

Tic Toc Tic Toc

Disclaimer: Be thou warned hereby for within this post lies the scattered thoughts of one who has little present interest in organization. The aforementioned person may come back to edit, but until then, deal with it without complaint. :)


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"A wizard is never late. He arrives precisely when he means to." -Gandalf from The Fellowship of the Ring (Watch it or watch it. You're choice.)


After  Frodo was waiting reading in the woods, and his friend finally arrives, he cracks a joke about timing. *crosses arms"You're late."
 Gandalf sternly corrects him with, "A wizard is never late, Frodo Baggins. He arrives precisely when he means to." But he quickly bursts into laughter over the matter, giving the scene a warm, lighthearted, friendly atmosphere.
Ironically, in the rest of the movie, Gandalf, a wizard seems to be late several times. At the Prancing Pony, Gandalf is really late...but because of his timing, Stryder is pulled into the movie. And frankly, without him....the rest of the movie and its sequels wouldn't go far.


But this isn't a movie review, so if you haven't seen Lord of the Rings, I would suggest you do so before you go after your next meal.


So back to my initial point then, shall we!? TIMING.
I don't know about you, but it seems like if I and/or others are always just a few minutes or moments off from "perfect timing". Like...the only perfectly timed moments are the ones in America's Funniest Videos (where someone always walks in at the WRONG time, but because it's hilarious, it's...well...perfect!). And more brief times aside, there are things timed seemingly poorly in life's circumstances. I would imagine that it is a rare thing for someone to die at an ideal time. Well...at least probably for someone the deceased person knew. It doesn't really matter to the dead one anymore... Or when the car breaks down, or when the alarm clock doesn't go off in the morning when it should, or when you're late and can't find your keys, or you need to go to the bank three minutes after its closing, or how there is always a long line in the checkout of the grocery store, or how Christmas break is too short, or when you tell someone when you'll be there and you're early. (what? when does that happen?) The list goes on and on! Time management skills...some of us (A)excel at it and quickly become control freaks, and others of us (B)leave it to the wind to the great displeasure of the people of group A.


But the thing is...the reeeeeally important thing to remember is this: God has perfect timing.
That means, even when we see that so-and-so sucks at getting anywhere on time, or can't seem to get things rolling in the morning, or when something tragic and devastating happens in your life...God's timing is still perfect. Often we can't see why things happen as they do. But it's okay because God does.
The Choirmaster, the Director, etc. He cues the basses to give some more depth to the music, He signals for the sopranos to quiet down just a bit, and he urges the altos and tenors to give just a little bit more to provide the melodic balance of a matched or harmonic chord. He keeps the beat, but when the singers get distracted or try to find their own tempo, things fall apart.


Staying in synch with God is vital. Why? Because His timing is perfect.
A wizard is never late. Well, Gandalf may have been late, but God never is. Even when we are in those dark times of life and want to scream at the sky "Where were You when I needed You?!" the fact is that God is never late, never forgets, never gives a rain-check, and always is in control.


Not only that, but He isn't limited by time either! (Take a moment to let what that means sink in and please post a comment about what comes to mind with God not being limited by time. I think it's fun to think about!)


I find all this to be not only comforting, but liberating. Not so that I'll be carelessly late, but when I do have poor timing and lose synch or need to find the right wavelength, MY GOD is NOT limited by that. He know's I'm human. But when I recognize that HE is God and that His timing is perfect, I'm motivated to rely on Him more and to worship Him for how incredible He truly is.

May Those Who Follow After

For those who come behind me,
I pray thatyou would see
My life mirroring His glory,
And this you strive to be.

May those who follow after,
Not see greed or hate
For if these things take up your heart-
Poor will be your fate.

For those who are still young,
P'raps not in age or time,
I hope you will remember
that He said "you are mine"

He asks us to serve Him wholy,
A calling true and great.
He loves and deems us worthy
Even through our mistakes.

Because we are not perfect
And never always right,
I pray you follow Him alone,
But not in your ouwn might.

You're blessed- I hope you see that.
Poor you never are.
For in His grace and mercy
Rich love is never far.

One day you will notice
Just as i have found,
A younger child-who looks to you
with feet treading the ground.

When you see this gift so great
I pray what you would do,
Is lead a life of godliness
Should they want to be like you. 




- Brenna 2009

Surrender

Oh, sweet Surrender,
What is this peace I've found?
The fight is finally over,
And now the joy abounds.

My anxious heart is taken,
Surrendered to the Full.
My beating heart was shaken,
But now is truly whole.

Happily am I weak
Surrendered to the Strong
Just because I've given up,
And now all doubt is gone.

You see when you are fighting
You fight until you break,
And once you're finally broken,
Grave things are then at stake.

I was broken from my fight.
One i couldn't win.
I gave myself completely,
And now such Love I'm in.

I'm dead unto myself.
It's not a morbid state.
Because i am yet so Alive,
In Him i trust my fate.

In Surrender i shall stay-
In what Grace has given me.
Oh, what peace and joy i have
Cause it's where I'm supposed to be.


-2009 -Brenna